Higher Love

 

Yesterday wasn't a significant day. It wasn't his birthday or the anniversary of his death. It wasn't the day we met, or the last day I saw him. But as I sat outside drinking a coffee, the light filtered through the changing autumn leaves and I was flooded with him. 

Inside Pete was playing piano - Higher Love - a song that always reminds me of  Ragnar. I played it to him on my piano about two years ago, the day we were getting ready to have a party at my house - one of the last times we got to dance through the night and be wild and silly. We danced to old, cheesy songs and reveled in our mutual love for each other. 

Ragnar believed in love like no-one else I know. He lived for it. He used to wear a hat that said 'Love is the answer'. He was all about the love. A bit like me I guess. I believe in love too. I believe in the power of deep, honest love to keep you moving when everything else is feeling hard. I believe in the power of love to heal and to provide pathways to growth. 

Ragnar left a legacy of love in the world when he died. There was such an outpouring of love for him and for the message that he continuously shared with the world. 

I think of Ragnar a lot and that legacy of love he left in his beautiful rainbow wake. How we as humans have this amazing opportunity to wake up each and every day and choose to love each other. Find love in each other and ourselves and our surroundings. 

I know that the days I wake up and feel full of love - those days are always the better ones. The ones where I wake from the dreamy place, to feel my love's arm around me, curled up and together in our rest. Or the afternoons when I see my teenagers walking up the lane, talking to each other and laughing, their easeful love for each other being witnessed unbeknownst to them. Or dancing - joyously and freely and catching the eyes of a dear friend, or a stranger. and feeling love so big it spills out your pores and moves between you. That's the love I'm talking about. 

Love in the simple moments. 

I'm not talking about the grandiose. I'm talking about the moments that might be gone in a second, but keeps you smiling hours later. The conversations that make you laugh just thinking about them. The funny moment whispered like school kids, when you're supposed to be listening to something serious. The warm feeling when you leave the company of someone you love so much, so much so that you want to turn around and have the experience all over again. Or the moment you happen to be privy to two strangers having THEIR moment together, as if the world didn't exist around them. Noticing the little things that fill our hearts with joy. 

It's so simple to find places to rest in love. If you're willing. 

Try it. Notice the moments you feel love. It might be as simple as sunlight coming through the window onto your face, or your dog looking up at you adoringly after having their ball thrown a million times - whatever it is. Relish in it. Take a moment to enjoy it. 

Love IS the answer. 

with gratitude

Anna

xx